84kg

wow wow.... i am so excited now!! Yesterday i was still thinking if i could even go down to 84 within this week.... cause been stuck at 85/86 for awhile.... Finally this morning after my run... i at first saw 85.3kg... was a bit disappointed... then i pull my weighting scale out from the wall to have a better stand... then bingo... i got 84.7.. didn't believe it and went to check again... wahaha... still 84.7 so finally i have hit the 84mark... its been a long long while since i seen myself at 84... looks like i lave lost those weight that i have gain during CNY and hopefully Christmas's weight will be gone by next month...

Looking at my progress i am expecting to hit maybe 80 by end of june... lets hope i really loose fats and not mass.... =)

On Track....

Ok its been almsot 3 weeks since i started my determination to loose weight, and i think results are showing now. I started off with 91kg and started to force myself to jog every morning. At first it was a torture of 15mins... but later i manage to increase it to 30mins and now i am at 45mins. Planning to increase it to 1hr when i get more comfortable with 45mins hee.. I have tried to make swimming with roger every Friday a compulsory and decided if possible I would throw in a few more afternoon swimming sessions when i felt motivated to drive there.

Food intake has been also been controlled, but i find myself a bit staving at times. I would try to keep to my 3 meals a day or having breakfast and lunch together. But this is not too gd, might have to figure something out. But i did notice by eating those take away food, my weight can be still maintained. So i guess my dad's term of "you can eat anything as long you exercise" is very valid.

So well today i manage to hit an all low 86.8kg which is gd cause i am able to keep to my "loosing 5kg in the first 1mth's" aim. After that i believe i should loose at least 2 to 3kg per mth. But of course the more the better. Was aiming to loose till 80kg... But at this rate i told myself.. why stop at 80 (which was an old target i was trying to hit) but aim for 75kg instead. So yeah another 11kg more to loose.

I hope by the end of this i can really get rid of this spare tire once and for all. Its time for a new me and good bye to the old me. Of course its for the Better and not for the worst. I am excited to see how i would be in the next 5mths... as i have decided to go on a restructured program. So yeah.... If any of you out there that needs encouragement to loose weight, can talk to me.. i am gd at making you feel bad for eating junk haha.. joking but will encourage you in ways that encouraged myself.

New Beginning

Ok, its been 2yrs since i seriously post something here. Well i finally decided to come back here again to give some updates of myself and might even use it to gauge myself from the current to the future me.

I Have a great 2009 with friends that i manage to get close with and knowing they would be there for me if i need them. Didn't achieve much in 2009 actually... i would call it my honeymoon period i guess. It was quite a bad yr in working life for me... since I have a hard time finding a job that suits my profession of a Computer system engineer.

So 2010 finally came... Started to wake up from honeymoon period.. My "gang" wasn't that active anymore as they all had other commitments or they just moved on with other friends. It was a bit sad but i tried very hard to keep them together. Although i failed but i still manage to meet up with them on a individual basis. which was better then nothing.

Life isn't always a bed of roses, you will get ups and down... last yr i hit a down and decided that this year i should make it an up. Things started to change and i had to change my profession also.

Went for IT classes to get my certs which i should do the exams soon. In terms of life, i also decided to start making changes, as i felt very soft after a yr of honeymoon.

So yeah... i am still coming up with my list... but for now i would like to aim for the bottom few which i also listed out on the side

1. Loose weight till 75kg (never done before so its going to be fun and tough)
2. Learn the guitar (finally started and would like to keep a constant practice with it)
3. Make a changing impact on myself (time to get serious and improve the old me is gd... but the new me will be even better, if that happens haha)
4. Clear my Microsoft exams
5. Get a job (seriously i cannot bum around at home all day)
6. Throw out stuffs that I don't really need out of my room (room is filling up with garbage time to throw stuffs out)

Thats all for now.. Will add on the list when I think of anything.

So yeah I will try to keep this blog active, although i doubt anyone reads it anyway but at least it keeps a record that I did exist =)

Till the next time

Jing Ee

Back again

yo its been awhile since i posted something here... 2 yrs maybe?

had a wild yr last yr so didn't do much writing hahaha

Well will update more if i get the motivation and inspiration

Catch ya all

Looking back at year 2008

Well this yr is kind of a roller coaster ride. Manage to complete some stuffs and had lots of unfinish goals.

Firstly i am happy that i finally graduated and kiss my days of Studies good bye (for now... in my line still need to upgrade constantly). Got My PS3 (Oh yeah~~~) Manage to lose weight (Well gain back a bit currently... need to loose 3kgs for graduation)

Goals that i didn't reach is not getting a job (bad yr to find job... with no demand in WA and economy downturn in oct because of USA), didn't get a GF (Sadly still no gals interested in me.... maybe i not aggressive enough???), Getting a car (well decided to get a car at first... fuel price went rocket high, but now drop till $1 which is not bad, but money is to be put to better use), Not getting a PC (as usual thanks to economy downturn, exchange rate for US is high... aussie money drop too much) 

Lots more, well anyway its end of the yr so looking back, i had lots of fun, finally out of adeline's cell (Well technically she has graduated and move on to YA), first time in a combine cell with a new cell leader which is quite fun also. What worries me is because i am not christian, so i hate ppl keep asking me y and telling me to convert, blah blah blah. But all works out fine. 

This is the 3rd yr i am here.... a lot of my friends from the first yr is not around anymore most like 80% are gone... not much left... onli me and adeline still in a gang haha... well shin yin also. But supprisingly i know more ppl this year also. Fiona, CS, MJ, etc from our dardanup trip, Then Jeff, kimberly, thompson, francis, etc from cell grp. Well although the close friends from the first batch is not around... i manage to make new friends, i guess that is the cycle of life...

Work wise was ok.... didn't expect myself to be stuck in crazy clarks till end of the yr. but well it was fun... and some hic cups inbetween.

Anyway Its been a fun 2008... first time christmas and new yr here... missing my friends back in sg. Well Happy new yr to everyone!! Good bye 2008, u have always been a great year and i will remember you =)

Jing Ee

ICE TEA!!!

Hee, recently i have been drink black Srilakan Tea which my parents bought when we were in Srilanka for holidays. So i am the type that likes to drink cold drinks and i couldn't wait for it to get cold since i dun have ice.

So wat i did was to freeze it in my freezer for a couple of hours... i had done it a few times... but this time i actually forgot about it. When i finally remember and take it out it's outer layer is already solidfied but the tea inside is still liquid.

So i took pictures of it to prove the theory of "ICE TEA" hahaha, anyway enjoy the rest of my little experiment =P

Scrap book for Adeline

Well this was sometime back i think 3 to 4 weeks ago. Well adeline for the pass 6mths was saying that she was into scrap booking. She would buy all the materials to make the book.... But the problem is she didn't had the mood and motivation to start it (actually i think she was just lazy lah hahaha sorry ade thats the truth).

So What happen was kimbery actually came up with a suggestion that each of us come out with a page and combine it to form a scrap book. This happen during the trip down to Dardanup as both of us were not around. When i came back then i found out about it, and i was the last 1 to do it (was thinking that kim was the last 1.... but after she told me that it was her suggestion then i figure out i was the last 1)

Anyway we gave it to her during the first friday service, she was all smiles on her face lol. Well yeah lets just enjoy her pictures with her smilling like a little kid who just found her favourite teddy bear or something =P

Good Bye Vishnu

Well the first housemate in my house who left perth for gd, Vishnu.... Housemate, Classmate and Gd friend. Well it was quite sudden and was still in shock (at that pt of time) that he is going off. We had lots of fun in the house and the pass 2yrs as classmates. Being Singaporean, you can understand each other better, making all those lame and crappy jokes. Makes me feel back home again.

well my good friend here has finally decided to move on to the next chapter of his life and shifted over to Canberra to start off his carrer. Well he is going there to work casually first, study the course he applied for and at the same time look for a job.

Well wish him all the best.... i am sure i will still see him some day, either i go over to eastern states or back in singapore.

Operation DND (Dump and Drive off)

Hee me and Nu did a small operation on sunday night, well since he is going off and has tons of stuffs to throw, the next logical thing that comes in mind is to find a very big bin to dump it.

Before leaving the house

Well I suggest to him that there is only 1 place i know of has a big bin which was ******* College (censored to protect our identity haha).

The Car Boot full of Junk

Everything went smoothly... nu tried to off his radio and his headlight when reaching there so that we won't attract unwanted attention. But when i see the carpark it was so brightly lit... i told him dun bother with the headaches... can leave it on. Yeah after quickly dumping the stuffs we left asap lol

It was a fun operation lol

Up and down week...

Well this whole week was full of suspenses, a lot of ups and downs.

Firstly i had a call on Monday (10/11), it was a miss call and i called back, found out that a company had called me up for interview, but the lady was not free at the time i called back, so waited till tuesday to recieve the call to make an interview appointment. Arranged to have the appointment on Thursday. I was so happy as it was my first interview since i graduated in middle of the year, so i was quite excited.

Went home, told my housemates about it, Then suddentely vishnu told me that he is planning to leave for Canberra by end of the month. It was a bit sudden to me, but still not that bad. He also offer to drive me down to my interview as it was quite a far away location up north after the domestic airport.

Wed, i was getting all excited about my interview the next day... decided to finish work a 2hrs earlier to head home to prepare for my interview. That evening as i was at home talking to alvin about some advice i got from my friend, vishnu suddentely came out and told us that he is leaving on the coming tuesdays, everything is confirmed... he had just bought his tickets arrange for shipping his stuffs, etc
This all came too sudden for me, i have to admit i was in shock. Now i got some headaches to worry about, like rental (dun think the owner will let 1 person stay in the house paying 1 person rent) finding a new house etc. I told vishnu to call up the agent at least and inform her, and see she allows or not.

Thursday, Went for my interview, it went ok. But i am not too keen in this company, i found out its mainly a man job cause there is only 1 guy in the team currently and i will be taking over his job and he can concentrate on the business side of the company. The stuffs there are quite mess up, end of the day i felt its a 1 man show... i even ask Ben for advice since he is in the line... he also told me if its 1 person... better not take it.

Friday, i actually got a miss call after work on the bus, happen to be sleeping didn't pick up the phone.... after listerning to the voice mail... the person spoke a bit too fast, but i think she is from another company which i applied for a position a bit later on. Now i am excited as when monday comes i will call her up and make an interview date with her.

Over all this has been quite a shocking week. I feel happy that finally got ppl calling me up for interview. But i am also sad at the moment cause my housemate and 3yrs classmate Vishnu is finally leaving the gang to start a new life in Canberra, I feel happy for him, but its going to be sad without him around in the house, less then 2weeks later alvin would be gone also which left me. Our gang of 4 has finally split up liao. Anyway all the best to Vishnu, Gary and Alvin in their future.

Logan

WTF.. Got Chased out of the Shop.... (Part 2)

thanks to everyone who show ur concern and msg me how i was feeling...

Decided to write part 2 now, cause i did call my manager back in the later afternoon.
He told me there was some mis-communication and he saw the roaster on the wall and say that was the old 1. I apoligise to him for making a big fuse in the morning (he wasn't around btw cause he was doing afternoon shift) he say its ok as it is not my fault. So i ask him am i suppose to work tomorrow (Friday) he say yes... come in at the same time. and i also asked if i can work on sat since i didn't get to work today (Which again is not i dun want to work... but the fact i was chased out of the shop). he checked his schedule and say its fine, will let me come work on sat for 4 to 5hrs. That is gd enough for me... even if he can't give me my full hrs shift (Cause sat is 1.25 rate) and also can earn a bit of money to cover for this week's expenses.

Anyway end of the day... i am just not happy with how some ppl handle this type of situation (not saying i did handle it well) i should had maintain my cool... but because this is not the first time... i dun see a reason y i should still act like nothing happen.... Tomorrow morning will see "her" again.... most likely i wouldn't even bother speaking to her and just do my work which my manager instructed me to do.. since he is the 1 who employed me....

WTF.. Got Chased out of the Shop....

Had a fuck up morning at work....

I got up at 5.30 usual and head for work starting at 7am
When i reach my work place, the so call "acting manager" asked me am i suppose to work today as the paper printed out does not have my name on it for the day.
I told her nicely that i spoke to the manager on monday and he has put me down on all the days except wednesday and he showed it to me on the computer that he put it down. the reason y the paper doesn't have my days on it is because it was printed out on sunday, which i called in to ask my shift and he told me to come down monday to work and arrange the rest of the week with me during work on monday.

So i carry on put my stuffs in the locker, walk to my trolley and started filling stuffs up.... then suddently she called me to the office and told me i am not suppose to work today.... then i ask her how come.... she say she called up the manager and manager say i am not working. So i was suprise and say i would call the manager up and ask. This is where all the crap come in liao....
She Dun allow me to call the manager and told me manager say no means no and ask me to pack my stuffs up and go home. I was like wtf.... y i cannot speak to the manager since he already put me down. then she start to explain shit about money in the shop maybe not enough to pay my salary if i work today, etc... and all this was in a very bad tone. Technically i was chased out of the shop

So once out of the shop i gave my manager a call, then i explain to him that he told me work on thursday.... cause i did ask again on tuesday before he left and he say he see me on thursday. then he told me he didn't know i was already in the shop as the "acting manager" didn't mention about that. he told me go back to the shop to work its ok.... and would call and tell the "acting manager". I was already in a very piss off stage (taking that i bang the back door on my way out) i told him, screw it, i not working today or at least in the morning with this "acting manager", if he needs me in the afternoon i will come back to work.

Maybe i am "new" to the working world... but i have never met someone so unflexible during work.... and if manager tell me straight in the face i not working, i am fine with it, but not letting me call the manager in the shop and chasing me out of the shop is what that pissed me off. I believe i have the right to ask my manager since he was the 1 planning the shifts and i was at that pt of time in front of him when he wrote it down in the computer.

Personally i have no problem with anyone in the shop other then this "acting manager". If not because i need cash to survive on my rental and utilites... i would most likely quit on the spot... but then again.. because of 1 black sheep... not worth quiting also.

Some ppl have to learn to be a bit polite and if i was told properly and allowed to make that phone call to clarified... i would be happy to just walk out of the shop and go home and enjoy the rest of my day... but no.... some ppl just like to throw their weight around because they got the power... HELLO.... this is not the army...

Oh well, i am going to just relex for the day play my new game (Disegea 3) and call the shop later to confirm if i have work tomorrow....

Tax Returns... FINALLY done Properly

FINALLY!!! they got my tax returns done properly....

this is what happen... 2 mths ago just before i went back to sg for holidays... i found out i got over tax... the company was suppose to tax me 13% to 17% but instead they tax me over 30%

I told my manager and he ask me send my tax declaration form again. Fine i fill it up and gave it to him.... and he send it in.
when i came back from sg and started to work... to my horror... the bloody tax is still done wrongly.... i earn $300 but i got tax $91.... that is like 1/3 of my paid gone to tax. So i confront my manager again... and he gave me the same thing "Oh u will still get it back during the next tax return yr" HELLO!! the financial yr for 2007-2008 just ended.... its in july... i have to wait a bloody 1 yr then i can get back my money??? somemore if earn more then $6000 i won't get back everything also... Was really bullshit... but never i did wat he say.. fill the paper again...

Then he goes for his 2 weeks holiday... and within those 2 weeks... i got paid 2 times.... all tax very high... this time was like $200 for $600+ of paid... damn total of $400 gone into the tax return pocket.... making me a bit poorer.

So this week i finally decided that i will tell my manager when he gets back... if he doesn't solve for me on the spot... i am not going to work until its solve.... wats the pt of working so much when u get tax so much. If my supposed tax is 30% i will accept that... but bloody hell the company made a mistake and i get tax more... this is something i cannot accept....

I have to be frank... a lot of aussies really not efficient.... my citibank acc is another story which i will post another time about it.

Anyway saw my pay slip today... finally a proper tax of $91 for $600+ paid.... see the difference? its a lot....

Another Clip For "God knows"

Found this on youtube... its the live version... she sounds a bit shaky... but still its a gd song. nice effort

Caon In D... Rock Version

Suddentely watched this clip again, seen it before a long time ago, but i still like the song in rock. The guy played very well, i think he is the original person to make this into rock.... not too sure. but anyway enjoy (its quite noisy so not for thsoe who like clasical lol)



Lol more Canon in D... this is done by a gal... actually not sure is she a gal or a guy, cause i know there is this japanese guy who likes to dress up as a gal but play very gd guitar.



The final 1 is played by 75 people... actually not so many some are the same person just take at a different timing. but still gd

Playstation 3

Well finally got my playstaion 3 after countless nights dreaming about it haha. Got my ps3 on the 25/6/2008 at clementi's Gamewerks. This shop is quite gd, the staffs are friendly and the games are not so expensive. I got my PS3 for $559 (official Sony RRP is $559 and australia is selling at AU$699) its a 40GB model. Yesh no PS2 backward compatibility, no card reader, no 2 extra USB ports. So most ppl will start bitching on why the 40GB? why not get the 80GB, it can do everything.

Ok firstly 80GB is kind of pharse out until recently the MGS4 release in usa they bunddle with it. (that is 1 of the reason y we can't find a 80gb for mths, cause sony kept all the stock to sell it to america). Secondly, the 80/60GB models all running on 90mm technology for their processor, but the 40GB is running on the 65mm technology. So this means the 40GB is much cooler compare to the 90mm and overheating would not be much of a problem. No card reader? so? would u be using it a lot? just get a usb card reader and plug it in... problem solved. no additional 2 more usb ports? Why u need so many USB ports? even the controllers are running on bluetooth. the only time u need it is for rock band maybe. but anyway a USB Hub would do the job.

Biggest argument of all, no PS2 backward compatibility. Come on. how many of you guys actually owns a big library of Original PS2 games. close to none for most Singaporeans (most not all, sure got ppl willing to part with their money). And even if u get the console with PS2 BC, but ur games are all pal games... sorry dude, its region locked so you are stuck with ntsc/j or ntsc/uc if you buy local SG set. And it would be better and cheaper to get a seperated ps2 console cause it is cheap and it won't spoilt ur PS3 blueray lens which are very sensitive.

Reviewing on the Playstaion 3
Well its a wonder gadget, the Cell Processor is way more powerful then the intel dual or quad cores. Graphics are excellent, but haven't reach full potential of what PS3 can do, looks like no developer can hit that level yet with the current technologies. Game wise, there are not many titles out yet, but at least the popular ones are out (GTA 4, DMC 4 and MGS 4). But the games of the next generation console are really good to play, the first game i ever complete in yrs was Metal Gear Solid 4 and it marks the first game I completed on PS3 (thought it would had been battlefield cause i played a lot since day 1 before i got MGS4)

As a multimedia device, its excellent. can play blueray, DVD, Divx, xmid, mp3, etc. thats a lot of things it can play. I can even set up streaming on my pc with the ps3 so i can just watch my movies within the network without copying it into the ps3

Overall this is a wonderful console, never regreted it. It just need sometime before it trashes XBOX 360 and the Wii. The Playstation 3 is designed to last 10yrs.

Guitar Strings....

Hee recently after watching the Reviver of X Japan, (my Favourite Jrock band is Back!!!), I decided to really learn my guitar properly once and for all. Actually wanted to go learn it in perth, but some how i can't find a place to learn... maybe i dunno the city well enough lol.

So what i did was to do a search on the website and some how i came across this website Justin Guitar. Did some reading on the website and found out it was quite interesting (Well the free guitar lesson actually caught my eye lol) so i took my guitar out to start my first lesson...

Guitar was out of tune... fine need to tune, so i took out my tuner and started to tune the guitar.... when i started to tune my 1st string (E string) the meter keep jumping.. so i keep tightening it... tighten and tighten... then to my worst expectation... it broke... #@$% now i have to buy a new set of strings.

Fine so i head down to the "nearby" music store a week later (cause was rushing assignment) got my set of D'Addario EJ16 strings. Was so happy, couldn't wait to put them on my guitar. Took me 1 hour to put those strings as it was my first time...
All string were in.. ho ho ho. Time to tune them again. So when i reach the first string (usually i start from the 6th string on the top). the sound didn't come out wat the meter wanted, so tighten and tighten.... @$%# it BROKE AGAIN!!!!

Now i am very piss off, almost wanted to throw the tuner away. So this time i decided to get the strings on Ebay... found the same set and it was $1 cheaper including shipping lol. Bought it.. and had to wait another week.

Finally it came last week... this time i was extra careful in putting the string. slowly i wind it... ho ho lucky this time i got what i wanted and yesh it is nicely sitting on my guitar now.

Yeah so now i am on my way to Rock stardom... well just starting to learn... manage to learn the D, A and E strings... heehee

Moral of the story.... When u feel like its going to break... it is going to break... stop and take 1 step back to look at the situation before proceeding.

Good Bye Terry

The Crazy Clark Team

Well this was like 2 weeks ago, me and the Crazy Clark team had an outing for a drink. This was to celebrate Terry's last week in Perth as he is heading for Bali and later back to korean (he should be heading back to korea now as i am writing this... i think)

Meet up at 8.30pm on 25/5/08 outside of the Crazy Clark back entrance, i was the earliest and decided to head over to the resting area at the train station to wait for them to pop up. Patrick and Deb appeared at around 8.20pm and i went over to meet up with them. later we head down to meet up with Josh and Tom outside taka.... Apperently Terry was late and we had to wait for some time.

We were suppose to head to some pub, but it has a private function, so we headed to Paramount which was in Northbridge.

Well the night was fun, we had a couple of drinks... well terry treated us most of the drinks as the night before he won $100 from the casino.

Vodka Shots lol

The best part of the night was when all of us had a shot of vodka. This was my first time, an i remember patrick was telling to Lick the salt first... drink the shot... then suck the lemon. so the procedure was Lick, drink, suck. It was funny all of us got ready in 1 line.... on the count of 3... Pat would shout out the commands to do the procedure. it was quite an experience heehee

Around 11.30 we went into the disco to dance a bit (yesh i did dance, first time dancing at the disco floor, but it was fun lol)

The Three Muscle Man of Crazy Clark

Well by 12.15 i guess pat, deb, terry and his gf was very tired already and they head home. Me, josh and tom also decided to leave and i was at the taxi stand waiting. hee some of the gals there were singing some song which i have no idea wat it was.

Well it was a gd night, Farewell Terry. It was great knowing you and working with you for a short 2 mths, but you are like a old friend of mine. Well if u ever come to perth again, do give me a ring to catch up on stuffs.

God knows collaborated video

Haven't been posting for quite sometime... just a youtube clip that Ben shown me... quite nice, all done individual and collaborated on video. Ben say he likes the "girl's" tights.... lol but actually i think she is a He lol



This is another collaboration with a bigger group
Enjoy will update again shortly!!

First Day Being a Butcher lol

Haha today is my first day working for my auntie in her butcher shop. I was a bit kan jiong since i dunno wat to do yet. First i was thought on how to serve the customers and use the casher machine. Quite a lot of things to remember, like when the person paying by cash i have to make sure i round up or round down the money correctly. then if the person is paying by eftos (nets), i have to make sure i key in the right amount into the machine and make sure it is approved before giving the recipe and packing the meat into the plastic bags.

My auntie's Store "Pork Mart & Poultry"

Next i was told how to use the laminating machine, had to place the plastic properly and make sure its flat on the plastic strip. Then all i need to do is cover it up and press the button for it to start. After that i was told to cut chicken wings, my auntie thought me how to cut by chopping the wing off hard. Later i found an easier way and also maybe my knife was sharper. I was also told to skin the chicken breast meat, it wasn't too hard, did it quite fast.

The shop was very busy at certain timing, is like they all decided to come at 1 time or something. So i had to chop chicken wings and serve customers at the same time. It was lots of work, but quite interesting, i manage to learn a lot of stuffs. but still a long way from becoming a professional butcher lol.

My Butcher Attire =)

1 of the workers there told me to wear boots instead of sneakers so i won't dirty my shoes, when i wore it i felt like Phua Chu Kang (PCK) just that i was wearing white boots (Dun Play Play hor) by 3 or 4pm it was time to clean up the butchery (not the outside selling store) had to use warm soap water to splash on the table and chopping boards then scrub it, was fun, but tiring. Later the guys use the big water hose to spray the entire place to make it cleaner.

After finish washing, the butchers went back after a long day of work. but we at the front store will stay till 6.30pm. By 6pm we would start packing stuffs..... and 6.30pm everything will be done. A guy will come in around maybe 5pm to start cleaning up the back again to make it better. When the shop is fully close, i would go take a bath in the toilet since the house has not much water due to the fact that it hasn't rain for a long time (its on a farm, rain water is more or less the source of water in the house).

I think i reach home around 7.45 to 8pm had dinner with my uncles and cousins, had some chat on mussuels since we were having that for dinner. There was lots of meat, i try to avoid most of them cause some how my diet change and i can't eat a lot of meat at 1 go.... trust me its a lot lol.

Well thats my first day at the butchery, tomorrow i am also working, heard its going to be damn busy. maybe i should sleep earlier tonight.